It's September 13,2012, 11:04 am here in my time, I'm watching my patient sleeping in her sick bed,while I'm doing my blogger. My wound at my lateral side of my foot was slowly healed, I put some medicine on it to prevent from infection. I also take antibiotic to make sure that my wound healed fairly without any complication, it started to reduce the swollen area, pain subside slowly, and I can slowly walk and I could also take care of my patient, I can also sleep peacefully at night without agonizing the pain. Thanks God for helping me carry the pain I carried.

What I was thinking and worried about is the problem my family carried for how many years, until now we still put our self into so much exasperating and exhausting situation. MONEY MONEY, why is it overpowering to the minds of my parents. DEBT DEBT DEBT, why are they borrowing money, all at once they could not pay for it, and we siblings carried heavy stone to pay for it. My parents pulling us down to grave to pay all these. Why? Tell me why?

We cannot move on, we cannot save for the future and we cannot help my other sibling for their needs. Why is that my parents don't understand that. I fully jealous of my friends, because their parents did not do that such things to them. Look at us now, we still crawling from mud. Sometime I could think that, does my parents care on us? Or they only think of themselves to survive, they don't care if we drown to desperation and suffering. I read some verse from the bible, it said " Suffering produces endurance, endurance produces character and character produces hope". What I meant for these that suffering help us mold stronger that will change our way of life and then made us stronger to hold on any pain we have?... I  do think and believe these, maybe they do something amazing in every human being that exist. I highlight that saying and thinking that it would work for me.

Life is so hard and pain overrule my life, I don't know how could I escaped for these. Sometime I would say I hate life and I hate my life. I hate my parents I have, I hate what they doing to us. I hope they change and realize something....